Agony
SARAH’S POV
“God has forgotten to make that something special for me. I was born alone, lived alone, and will die alone. So, stop dreaming and stop giving me false hope.” I said, venting my anger at her.
“No, my child, there is someone who cares about you like no one else does.” She again tries to convince me.
“Only one person cares for me, and that is you. You are long gone, and I want to come to you now.” I said this while tightening my hold on her.
No, dear, as I said, your time has not come yet. You have a long, beautiful life to live.” She said it in a sweet voice.
I shake my head.
“Sarah, my child crying over the spilled milk will not help, my dear. Whatever happened is happening; now stop crying.” She said it sternly.
Ignoring her words, I still cried my heart out.
She did not say anything after that; she just kept on caressing my back lovingly, and I kept on crying.
When my tears stopped a little, she spoke softly, Sarah. ”
Hmmm,” I hemmed in reply.
Will you do one more thing for me, my child?” She asked me softly.
Hmmm.” Closing my eyes, I hummed again.
“You have fulfilled your duty as a child while fulfilling my dreams. You made your name the way I dreamed of it, but now I want you to live for yourself. Will you do this for me?” She spoke lovingly.
I shake my head.
“Please, my child?” She requests it in such a way that even the Devil or God cannot deny it.
‘But I do not want to live, so how can I promise her? I thought with my closed eyes.
“Promise me, my child, that you will never waste this lovely life that the Almighty has blessed you with.” She said it softly.
I scoffed at hearing the name of the non-existent Almighty.
She chuckles, hearing my scoff, and says, “I know you do not believe in God, but dear trust, he is there, and he was always there to protect you.” She said this while breaking the hug and looking at my face, and I did the same.
‘A smile broke on my face looking at her cute, innocent face. How can God create such a charming yet warm person, I know?’ I thought, smiling at her.
“Now tell me, will you live your life the way you want to? Will you live your dreams? Will you do things that will make you happy?” She asked me, holding my hands, and unknowingly, I nodded in agreement.
“Yeah.” She clapped like a child. I giggled, looking at her cute tactics.
“Sarah.” I look up, hearing the voice of Nathan.
He looked worried and looked here and there, looking at me and giggling.
“Nathan looks like he is here,” I said excitedly and pointed towards Granny, and to my shock, she wasn’t there anymore.
I instantly got up from my place and called her out painfully. “Granny Granny, where are you? Granny?” I called, looking like a mad woman.
“Sarah.” Nathan ran towards me, holding me by the shoulder.
“She was here, Nathan. She was just here, talking to me. She was her.” I cry out again in helplessness.
“I know. I know she was.” Hugging me tightly with Nathan Mummer.
“People who love us never leave us, Sarah.” Nathan spoke softly.
“She was here. Then she said, I should live my life.” I said this while wetting his crisp shirt.
“Yes, she was right. You should live your life the way you want to.” He said this while creasing my back.
“But I do not want to.” I whined.
“So, you want to leave your brother in the world all alone, hmm?” She asked me this, broke my arm, hugged me, and looked at him.
He had tears in his eyes looking at that. More tears pooled in my eyes.
“No, I do not want to leave you.” I said this while again hugging her tightly, as if my life depended on him.
“Then do as Granny says.” He said this while tightening his grip on me.
I cried my heart out while keeping my head on his chest, and he kept on saying sweet words to calm my nerves down.
“Now come on, let us go. We have a flight to catch.” He said this while backing away from the hug.
I thought for a bit and looked into his eyes. “Nathan, I do not want to go back.”
“So, what do you want to do? You still want to stay with that asshole?” He asked, gritting his teeth.
I shake my head. Nathan, if I go back, Sean will come behind me again, and I do not want to see his face ever again.” I said, huffing.
“So, what do you want to do?” He said this, scrunching his eyebrows.
“Last time, God held on to my life because I let him do it. Last time he found me because I let him find me, but this time he never will.” I said it in an understated voice.
“What are you thinking, Sarah?” Nathan asked, looking purple at my changing decor.
I smile deviously.
“Simple. This time, he will never find me. I will wash out of this world like thin air.” I said, smirking.
“And where will you go?” He asked.
“Somewhere far away from here, but I will not live in the USA. Because if I do, it will be easy for him to track me down, and moreover, I am a citizen. So I do not have to worry about anything while staying here.” I said this while walking back to my grandmother’s grave.
“No, we cannot stay here.” He shakes his head.
“Not we; you cannot stay here.” I said, looking back at him.
“What do you mean by that?” I am not leaving here alone. Do you understand that, Sarah?” He almost shouted at me, and I smiled at his loving nature.Text property © Nôvel(D)ra/ma.Org.
“Do not worry; I will be in touch with you. Moreover, I want to live my life the way I want to. I want to do things I like.” I said, smiling dreamily.
“Do not forget, he is Sean Hudson. He will track you down from hell if you are there.” He said a fact, which I am well aware of.
“He will only tack me down when I let him do so,” I said while opening my bag. I take out all my credit cards and my license and give them to him.
“What is this?” He asked, looking confused.
“You are going to keep this with you and my passport as well.” I said, smiling.
“And how will you survive here all alone without these?” He asked sarcastically.
“Are you forgetting who I am? Money was not and will never be an issue for me. Always remember. I have many accounts other than these.” I sent out my cards to him.