My First Crush Happened To Be My Hubby!

Chapter 26: 26. Her Love for Him

D's PoV

After helping Chinna anna in cooking lunch, I came to my favorite spot in this house - The Swing. Shekar uncle said he will come for lunch regularly from now. How sweet of him right!? I am now surfing through some songs that will tell him how much I love him and how I feel about him. I'm folding his clothes and mine. I have to ask Ravi about the ironing board and iron box. His shirts are to be ironed. I also thought of some songs like 'mudhar kanave' (my first dream) from Majnu(a tamil movie) just to kindle my memories in his goddamn mind.

How did I recognise him and he did not?! Shithead!

D, think with your mind. He is your first crush. He saw you in his 12th standard. Which means you may not be his first crush. You remember him because he made butterflies when you hit your puberty. He is special to you. But why should you be the same to him?

Can't you take up my side for at least an instance? You always say things which make me question my decision of marrying him. What the hell were you doing when I decided to marry him, idiot?

I tried to tell you. But you shut me out, D. You were behaving like a love-struck puppy and he had the bone.

You are so not my mind. Get lost Mindy. I chased Mindy away, she is no good use to me.

Something tells me that he is going to come for lunch. I am still in my pjs. I haven't bathed yet. This folding can wait. I don’t wanna get embarrassed again for not bathing if he comes for lunch now.When I come after bathing it's 1.30pm already. Perfect time for lunch. But no one is home yet. Ravi too went out to meet his friends.

I sat on the swing and resumed my song search while folding the clothes. I so wanted to see him now. He is so manly and handsome. I love him. No words can convey my love for him.

Why don’t you write a love poem for your hubby, D!? It will be romantic.

You want me to write a love letter? Are you nuts? We are married dumbhead!

So what, D? You love him, right?

Mmmmmm? yes, I do! But I'm not good at writing poems. I will think about it though!

I looked at his blue shirt. He looked god damn hot in this outfit. His strong arms are on display, God, he is killing me with his looks. I took his T-shirt and wore it on my salwar. I played my favorite serial title song on my phone and started listening to it, hugging myself. I mean hugging his T-shirt!

I started singing along. It’s the most lovable melody I have ever heard.

"Ullam kollai poguthada....

Un arugil, Un siripil....

Ennai Marandhen naanada....."(I lost my heart when I am near you, I forget myself in your smiles)

Rishi's PoV

I finished all my pending work. I got an order to my boutique for a bridal lehenga. I have to find the right design, color, cloth, pattern and design it. I have 2months left though. I usually don’t take any last- minute orders. I make all unique designs for my boutique.

She is so distracting. I keep seeing her face when I close my eyes to imagine a creative design. I made a note to make a special outfit for her. All unique and beautiful. I tried hard to concentrate on the design. Nope! Not happening. I can’t design if I'm this distracted.

Dad said he is going for lunch at home every day, starting today. Why don’t I go too? Like, I can see her. Maybe then I can concentrate on my work!?

When I got home, I heard music from upstairs. I climbed 2 steps on a go and reached at the top to see her sitting on the swing wearing my T-shirt hugging it. She was singing the song along until she saw me and when she saw me, she froze. She is so gorgeous wearing my shirt.

The song goes on and we lock our eyes with each other. I have never heard this song before. I don’t know which movie it is from. But the song is beautiful. It feels like she is singing it to me! Never in my life have I ever listened to the lyrics of a song like I do now. The lyrics are heart melting. Content from NôvelDr(a)ma.Org.

We broke our trance when the song got over. She is still sitting on the swing looking at me in the eye while I started walking towards her.

"Akka(big sister)! You said we can dance if I finish my lunch. Just call mommy and ask. I finished it completely." Roshan, our neighbor kid, ran past me to her.

God! How did he come in? I backed off while she picked and sat Roshan up on the swing. She is all shy to look at me now. What am I doing here standing? Why is everyone interrupting me!? Shit!

"We sure can dance, Shan. I haven't eaten yet. Uncle here hasn't eaten, too. Can you bring your painting book and do painting until we are done?" she asked him, completely ignoring my presence.

"ok akka!"

Roshan ran off. But now I feel weird going near her. I could see her wait for me to make a move but that moment was gone. With so much to talk between us, I felt it so wrong to surrender to the body demands.

"Kanna! I'm home already! Shall we eat?" my dad called from down the stairs.

See, I told you. Everyone in this house has taken an oath to spoil our moment. Even this stupid of my wife spoiled our moment last night.

"Coming mama!" She shouted and took my T-shirt off and ran past me without even looking at me.

So much for leaving my work and coming here. I didn't even get to talk alone with her. I went down too, to have lunch. Dad had this unbelievable look on me. He must be thinking why the hell am I here at this hour?!

Thanks for coming at the right time dad!

Now he is smirking at me? Seriously, dad? God, what is with everyone?

Not once is this girl looking at me. She served us the first serving and sat along with us. Ravi is not home yet. Chinna smiled at me when I went to wash my hands. They all know why Am I here for lunch?

At Least they can pretend to not know. It's so embarrassing!

The song is still playing in my mind. She sure loves to hear songs. Using too much phone is not good for her and our environment. I thought of gifting her with an I-pod. That way she can hear songs without the internet and phone.

She is beautiful. Everything she does tells me that she is losing it in me just like I’m losing it in her. Her behavior tells me that she is not a bit sad in this marriage. But I don’t really know her intentions though. I still am not putting my trust in her. I am not going to be fooled around another time by a girl. I drove off to my office to resume my work. At least I got to see her.

D's PoV

I'm so happy today. Just like my heart said he came for lunch. I know he came to see me, to spend some time with me.

D! You guys are in the perfect wavelength. Right time to tell him your past. Finish all the loose ends and start a happy life with him, Mindy told me.

You know what? You are right. I will talk to him when he comes home. After I'm done explaining I should ask him to take me on a honeymoon. We can’t have alone time until we are here.

I mean even today we got interrupted first by Shan and next by uncle. Hehe, I mean I like them both but they did interrupt our time together. That longing in his eyes for me, that is completely true from his heart. I can understand his inhibitions with me, I mean I am a stranger to him and I married him when he refused to. He thinks I am selfish and all absurd things because he is just confused on where to put his trust in. I must earn his trust because it is me who barged into his life.

My sister Dakshu called me. She finished her second year in computer science engineering. She is on her vacation too just like Ravi. She got an internship here in Coimbatore at "Firm Fort constructions" to train on cad software that helps in designing the building.

Yeah, dad allowed her because it's in Coimbatore and Shanu is already here and we have our grandparents’ place for her to stay. It's a one and a half month internship. And yes, that's Rishi's friend's office. It gets all boring at home for me after everyone leaves and I don't really have any work besides cooking here. I can ask Rishi if I can go with my sis to her workplace. I mean it's his friend's place after all and he can help me get a job there. I'm an IT graduate, remember!?

Also, Aakash anna(brother) called me up to say he, anni(sister-in-law) and Shanu are coming here this weekend to see us. If possible, we can go to an exhibition at VOC park. I love rides and to buy all small items like hair clips, nail polish etc., there in the exhibition.

I also like those big appalams(fry yums) and chilli fritters! Also, sugarcane juice! Also,cotton candy! Also, cauliflower chilli! Yeah, I love food!

My friend Rahul called me in the evening and we had a long talk. He is a funny nice guy. He was all mocking me for my love story and recalling all college memories. He is a stupid too. He had this audacity to tell me that I fooled my dad and got married to Rishi. He said if at all my dad had known that I love Rishi then he would have not allowed me to marry him. Now thinking back, I think my dad would have said ok if I was in love with someone from the same community as I was. But then that is not love if you ask someone their community, that would be ‘planning’ and love doesn't come planned.

It's a beautiful day. I can't wait for Rishi to come home. I made egg puffs for the evening snack. Yeah, I'm good at following YouTube for snack recipes. I started waiting for him because whenever I think of him, my heart just elevates to another level of happiness all together. I Love Him with all my heart. I Love His looks on me. I Love His touches, that makes me crave for him more. I Love Him for how he treats me. Like who will treat a girl good, who came into a man's life without his permission? He does. He is My Man. I should talk to him tonight.