My Not Yet Mate

Chapter 75

She could hear them in the hallway. They had been out there pacing for hours already. They had been sending people in to check on her every time Lucy made a sound. She reached for the formula again when Lucy started crying. She effortlessly made the battle and shifted Lucy on her lap to feed her. She stared down at her daughter as she held her own bottle. Her door opened and Sommer came in, shutting the door softly behind her, before sitting on the edge of her bed.

“Lily, talk to me. What happened? How can I help you?”

“You can’t. Go away”

Her lifeless voice was quiet, but she didn’t care. All she could do was see herself surrounded by men. Her arms tightened around Lucy and she looked

“Get out,” she whispered, letting her aura flare out.

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up and was forced out of the room. Everyone outside fell silent seconds before the door was kicked off the hinges. Her father stormed into the room with Papa Slonsky by his side. Papa Slonsky removed Lucy from her arms and continued to feed her while her father picked her up.

“We are not doing this again,” he growled.

He leapt over the balcony where a group of men were waiting. He grabbed her arm and threw her into the middle of them. They closed the circle around her while her father started walking around them.

“What are you going to do, Lilianna? Are you going to let them touch you? Are you going to give up and let them use you?” He suddenly stopped to look at her. “Who are you, daughter?,” he sneered.

One of the men pulled a dagger out of his pocket and began to approach Lily, who sank to her knees with her head down, whimpering

“I knew you didn’t deserve my son. You don’t deserve anything. You were born nothing. You are nothing You will never be anything,” her father taunted her.

Lily closed her eyes as she slowly repeated his words, her heart breaking even more. Lukas opened their link and began to surround her with love and peace. She brought her hand up to her mouth as silent sobs wracked her body. She began to rock back and forth. One of the men grabbed her arm and pulled her forward. Lukas pushed even more love through their link at her increased panic.

‘I am so sorry, Lily. If I had known, I would have taken you away from all of that. I always failed you, Lukas whispered in her head.

He felt like he had failed her? She had failed herself, letting this part of her past impede her progress to get back to him. She had buried it so deep, it had been like she could pretend it didn’t happen. She had thought she was over it, but she clearly was lying to herself. The look on his face when…. she let out an anguished wail and Gemma took over, shifting. She tore through the men with her talons and her teeth until there was nothing. She turned towards her father and bared her teeth. She let fire out and it twirled around him, before going out. He smiled at her.

“There’s my Lily. Welcome back, my queen.”

He knelt before her with his head lowered. He would never see her coming if she chose to rip his head off of his shoulders. She turned her head and the carcasses she had torn up were gone. In their place lay shredded clothes and pounds of clay and mud. She shifted back.

“What- what’s going on?”

Sasha smiled at her as she came out of the castle with Kalani by her side. “Sorry, honey. We needed to remind you who you were.” She came over to grasp Lily’s hands in hers. “You are not the same scared little girl that couldn’t trust anyone, love. You are a survivor, a mighty queen among peasants. You always were.”

She went over to kneel beside their father. Kalani, Gregory and Aiden joined them, bowing low to her. Her hand went around her throat and she took a step back. Small noises behind her had her spinning around. Aunt Joy, Slonsky, Sommer, James and Casey were kneeling behind her. Her heart thundered in her chest.

“LI

Her father looked up at her. “Are perfect. There is nothing wrong with you. Not a single thing that happened to you was your fault. I’m glad we know that happened to you. It explains so much. We knew Luis wanted to touch you. He told Lukas that much. We just didn’t realize he had.” Content from NôvelDr(a)ma.Org.

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and cupped her face, wiping away her tears.

“He told Lukas that?”

Her father nodded. “Right before Lakas killed him for hurting you. He really does love you, Lily. Everything he does is for you. I understand that you are hurting right now, because of last night, but I know he would want to be there for you. Let him be there for you, Lily. I’m not saying to run to him and put yourself in a position you’re not ready for, but don’t push him away. He needs you as much as you need him. I talked to him this moming and I’ve never heard him like that,”

“Like what?”

“Distraught. He wanted to come here and make sure you were okay. He really does love you,” he repeated,

Lily sighed and began to twist her shirt in her hands. “I miss him. I know I see him in my dreams, but it’s not the same.”

Her father opened his arms and she moved into them. “Then go see him, Lily. I know he would love to see you.”

*I was thinking about it,” she confided.

He pecked her cheek. “Good. We’ll all support you.”

“I know thank you.”

“Why don’t we go eat and then you can go to bed. You need to rest.”

He draped his arm over her shoulders and led her inside.

“Do you think he will blame me for what happened?”

“Not at all,” he reassured her.

She quietly ate dinner while she fed Lucy. She replayed the dream over and over again in her mind, finally pausing on Lukas’s face. The look she had thought was pity, showed more sorrow than anything. She replayed it again, paying more attention to the tension in there that had hovered inside of her. His frustration had grown every time she had danced away and his desire to protect her shot up drastically. His heart breaking was the last thing she felt before she exited the dream. She cleaned her daughter’s face.

“I think Mummy needs to go to talk to Daddy” She picked her up and carried her to Sasha. “Do you think you could watch her for me tonight?”

Sasha immediately took her and gave her a hug. “Of course. Are you going to bed now?”

Lily nodded. “Yeah.”

She turned around and left the dining hall. She climbed into bed and looked at the clock. It was almost 9 o’clock. She sighed and settled in to wait for another hour before she called to him. She laid in the dark and gave herself a lengthy pep talk. She needed to know and she was going to get her answer tonight, no matter how afraid she was. Right at ten, she closed her eyes and let herself sink into slumber.

She looked down at her body. She knew the robe she wore would confine him, but it was needed for the night’s activities. She took a deep breath and called to him. He instantly appeared in front of her. He eyed her for a second, before opening his arms. She took a step back, shaking her head.

“Lily,

“They used me that whole week. Before then, they were okay to me, but after you came they were so angry. I didn’t understand why I do now, but I didn’t then. They didn’t want me to be your mate. They thought that if they broke me that I would reject you or something. They didn’t understand that you were the only one that made me completely safe. They didn’t know that when I was here, I could be myself. I got to live like a real child. I got to see what real love was.”

She pushed her hand into her stomach. “When you took me home after Sasha’s wedding, they held me down while my father forced me to give him oral and he Angered me. He bit me and beat me. His cronies just stood there and laughed. Preston, his gamma, was my father figure. I used to sneak out when I thought / could and him and his wife would hold me.”

She paused to take a deep breath. “Every time I saw you, they come to me. They would force me to do stuff to them. When I started developing, he would come into my showers and feel me up. He liked to touch my breasts. I hated it. I hated every time that they touched me. It made me feel so dirty.”

She fell silent as she looked into his eyes. She played with the knot on her belt.

“I never felt that way with you. Your touch was never to hurt me. I felt cherished and loved. You made me feel safe. You made me feel like for that moment in time, I was worth everything”

He leaned towards her to place his forehead against hers. “That’s because you are.”

She removed herself from his reach and let the robe fall from around her naked body.

e street.”

“I want you to touch me, like I was a stranger on the

“But you’re not.”

“Lukas, please. I need to know what you’re capable of.”

He reached for her again and she took a step back. His hand fisted, before dropping.

“No, Lily”

She met his eyes and let her our flare out to surround him. She felt him try to change the scene, but she kept it steady and let her power wrap him up in her

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“Fuck me like a one night stand.”

Chapter Comments

chike brooke

what! Omg! why did you do that Lily? I’m so sorry for Lucas…….my not yet mate

chika brooke

Thanks to papa Sterling he always comes through for Lily. Seems he’s the only person who knows how to talk to her

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