11.
A glimpse into his pain
Lust. That was what I felt for Julian-a consuming, intense desire. I’ve never been sex-crazed. How he was bringing out this side of me surprised and scared me. My pussy was not one to judge a man correctly, so I feared I wasn’t seeing the things I should be seeing, but how can I. When his hands were slowly rubbing my legs, even though it was through my jeans, I felt as though he was touching my bare skin.
Julian looked like he knew what to do with a woman’s body, and I wanted him to fuck me with all that knowledge. It’s been a year since I last had sex after my terrible breakup with Micheal, which left me picking the pieces of my heart for months.
Julian cleared his throat, pulling me out of my thoughts. “I’m sorry for what just happened. Can we move past it?”
I gave him a weak smile, not daring to look into his damning grey eyes. “You don’t have to be sorry. Holland is your daughter, not mine. I know you will do what is best for her. I shouldn’t stand in your way. After all, I am only her teacher.”
I felt like I was speaking more to myself than to him.
You are upset. Just say it.
You know what else I am? Horny as fuck.
“I know you are upset…”
“No. No.” I cut in.
“You are Samantha, and you have a right to be. There’s no use denying it,”
I smiled wryly. His being so close to me has me dripping from my core.
Please pay attention to what he’s saying, Samantha.
Be upset.
“I should not have spoken to you like that. It’s completely unacceptable. You’ve been like a mother to her, a better mother than she had. My fiance left me with her. We never got married. She ran away with her lover, and since then, I’ve been heartbroken. I have tried to be a good father, but it always feels like I’ve failed. Until now, she won’t speak or call me Dad. I’ve tried a therapist, hypnosis, everything except the church.” He chuckled sadly.
“I’m positive she would soon start speaking. She’s just five. Some kids are like that. You are doing your best. It’s difficult for a single father to care for a little child, especially a little girl. You are doing what you can for her.” I consoled, taking his hands in mine.
“I’m not doing my best.” He shook his head, looking down.
I hope he likes my white nail polish.
Focus Samantha.
I need him to eat me out on that desk. I need him to fuck me hard. I need him to…
“She doesn’t even like me, Aaron she likes, Samantha she likes but not her own father.” Julian paused. I didn’t know what to say to make him feel better, so I just started playing with my fingers.
What can I say to a father who feels unloved by his child?
I doubted if she really liked Aaron or maybe she did, but she liked me more, hence didn’t want to go to him because I was here. And she was shaking because she was scared of her father scolding her like all other kids are. Maybe things are that simple. Now, it all started to make sense to me, and I was relieved.
“I don’t know what else to do. I’ve done all I could think of. I don’t know what to do anymore.”
I noticed the tears that fell down his eyes even though he tried to hide them by looking away. He stood up, and I did too.
“Can I hug you?”
He pulled me to him in a second. He held me tight around my waist, and I put my hand around his shoulders.
“It is all right. She loves you. Believe me, she does.” I whispered, rubbing his back.
Do you care about his pain, or do you just want to fuck him, Samantha!
“I love her more than my own self.” He said, his voice breaking.
He hugged me even tighter.
I felt hot inside. It wasn’t fair to me how he made all my senses evaporate. I could feel desire surge through me. I cleared my throat and focused on breathing.
Shit, he’s hard.
His cock twitched, and I felt it on my stomach.
Fuck! He’s so hard.
“I hope you are right.” He said softly.
Are we ignoring this need?
“She loves you,” I repeated. He withdrew from our embrace, yet his eyes remained on mine.Còntens bel0ngs to Nô(v)elDr/a/ma.Org
He looked so vulnerable. The way he gazed at me like I was his savior turned me on so bad, but I didn’t want to make any move on him. I wondered what Aaron must have told him, maybe that I was a gold digger who was after him. I didn’t want to prove the bastard right.
“Thank you for accepting this job. From my heart, I really cannot thank you enough. I just hope that with you around, my daughter will be able to love me. At least she can finally have something like a family now. I thought she would never speak, but then when she started to call your name.” He chuckled, his eyes lighting up in excitement. “It was the best day of my life.”
It must have been really exciting for him when he heard his daughter speak for the first time. Even if her words weren’t ‘dad’. I could see the love for her in his eyes when he spoke. “It gave me hope. I started expecting again that she would be normal, and it was all because of you. I have hope again because of you, Samantha.” He smiled at me with adoration in his eyes.
I blushed, and my knees wobbled, almost giving in.
I loved how he talked to me as if I was an Angel. I’ve never been seen in that way before. He raised my chin, his eyes not leaving mine. He leaned closer, breathing in me. Inhaling me, I became conscious of my perfume.
My heart began to beat alarmingly, catching a hint of what he wanted to do. He leaned close, and I closed my eyes, waiting for him to kiss me. But instead, he led me to his table.
He’s going to fuck me on the table.